I have found myself in a very versatile position; one in which I feel peace, comfort, motivation and some holy f*ck moments. I remember asking my young self, “what would you do if the world stopped?” …well girl…it has. Bustling streets, busy restaurants, congested airports and sold out shows have literally seized to exist and within this seizure I have found a new way to exist; I miss the first sip of my Venti Coconut Milk Latte, I miss the sound of the airplanes flying overhead soothing me to sleep. I have had to find a new way to cope with today. The roads are bare when I go for a walk but the sky is clear. The sounds of the birds in the sky are similar to when I was a young child at my Grammie and Gramp’s cabin in rural Newfoundland, Canada. The sound is crisp and clear. I can hear again.The sun beams in my window shining on my fingers as I write these words and I truly feel blessed.
The not so beautiful sounds that I hear in my heart are of loved ones isolated in hospitals. The sounds of our older, our most wisdom-filled generation’s soft cries of confusion in their homes because they are scared to get sick, scared to die; scared to hear of their friends passing; scared they will die alone. These are the familiar sounds that haunt how we will proceed as a family presently and post pandemic. How will you treat your neighbour? How will you interact with our elders that we see in the streets that made it through this living Hell? How will you present yourself to the new world we are going to face when this “pandemic” is over. Are you going to go buy a new car? Are you going to buy new sneakers to go back to the gym we so diligently frequented? Or are you going to take time to drop flowers off at the nursing homes once a month and run on our beautiful trails in your old sneakers giving a high five to the other runners you see in those not-to-take-for-granted moments?
The world is going to come to an abrupt start soon; As quick as everything was taken from us, it is going to be thrown back at you in the forms of advertising, loan repayments, billboards, expensive airfare to attend expensive shows to pay for the expense of the already rich. How will you cope? How will the people who have quite literally lost everything cope? The first responders? And by first responders I mean the grocery store staff, the hospital staff, the doctors, social workers, police officers and everyone in between. The people who have lost loved ones? The people who have sat completely alone full of anxiety and torment?
The best advice I have received and I can share is to focus on FAITH. Find something to focus on other than Covid-19, other than worry, other than death, other than the economy. Although it is a very real thing to have those feelings, we collectively have to find somewhere and something else, as a group, to refocus our energies. This is where the shift of how you cope will change. If you have the ability….donate to a charity that really needs financial support right now. If you have the ability, reach out to your neighbours, nursing homes, hospitals, small business owners and see how you can contribute or support them. If you have the ability, send a family a meal through one of our first world apps like Skip the Dishes; find your happiness through helping; that is how our family has learned to cope during this time. By reaching out.
Have a restful sleep tonight. Be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself. Love yourself.