Is it crazy that tonight I am dreaming of what life will be like at 40? I barely just turned 36, I still feel like I am 29, my brain has lived what feels to be100 years over and over and my spirit thousands of years.
Tonight I feel a bit scattered inside.
Our province has announced they are “reopening the economy” starting tomorrow but it’s not like a magic wand. Everywhere we go we see people wearing masks, we see peoples fears and anxieties. It takes all of my spirit power to shine a bright light over my family to keep us untouched from “the virus”. I don’t even want to talk about what I think “the virus” is …because that will create a likely debate and I will probably lose a few fans. But I do know, I long for what life will be like in four years.
Don’t get me wrong, I cherish every.single.day. I am more in tune with my heart and my spirit now than I have ever been. I am reading other people’s energies from a far and learning to keep a distance from energies that don’t align with mine. It’s hard for empaths to create boundaries and I know my downfall is my ability for “hope”. I always HOPE for the best possible outcome.
Now I have changed than lens to one of prayer. If it is for the good of God, the good of what my spirit has been brought to earth to accomplish and if it is good for my family than we will be victorious. Every morning I wake up and I listen to Anna Woods raising your vibration mediation. You NEED to find her on IG or You Tube she has been such a light in my life in the past week; if you have come this far, you are here for a reason and you can thank your spirit later.
I hug my children, we say a prayer together, we have breakfast and plan our day. Whether it’s going out for a walk, playing in the sprinkler, playing basketball out front, having a bbq or face timing with family we start our day out right. It’s when they are all sleeping soundly in bed at night that my mind starts to wonder. I feel scared of this change of the unknown and find myself having to recreate language and say “I am confident in this change”, “I am confident that Jesus has got us”..but to be real with you, I do have moments of fear. I want to know when I am forty that all of our children are successfully living in a beautiful and humble world where they are supported by their peers, the government is not corrupt, there is health and peace between countries, there is love and meditation everywhere we look.
I pray we will be able to travel and help people, do charity work, learn and evolve. I pray we will laugh, love, sing and be silly and everyone will be together and be strong.
Tonight I will sleep and dream of what life will be like when I am forty…