Don’t you listen?

Are you paying attention?

Clearly you have zero respect. 

Why can’t you get “this”…whatever “this” is on any given day by any given person. 

Doctors! Medication! Sedation! Trial & Error. 

They called it everything, they have said everything and I am guilty of saying some of the above to my own teenage son who has ADHD. I was hard on him at times.. then I was in a motor vehicle accident and developed “ADHD”.

Only now am I learning to live in a new brain, in a different world (considering the changes 2020 has brought upon civilization as a whole) and to advocate and support myself and my son because only now I can relate to his side of the story. It makes me feel like shit if you want me to be honest and transparency is the theme of the year…intertwined with integrity, growth, grit and outright confusion. My family had a hard time trying to understand the new me. The old me…was able to set one serious goal and sit down and get it down with 150% no matter what I was applying myself. The new me, the attention deficit me… sets 15 small goals, starts them all, gets to the middle of some of them and might finish 2. That’s the reality of it. BUT, I still work magic in a crisis…it’s where I work best.. but not before my brain overloads on stimuli such as sound. I crash and burn at the sounds of some things so I have to be cautious of the environment in which I am literally trying to function in.

I can run three separate businesses but I can’t seem to finish a book or remember anything I read this morning. Crazy hey?

I love to meditate but it takes me clearing my head to find the intention and set down the time to start the meditation, but when I find that moment, it’s ….home. But to get home I had to walk to the grocery store, buy chocolate when I was supposed to buy cheese, forget to get gas, ignore the ringing phones in my purse and try to remember the route…that is literally how it feels when I have to plan something…as simple as meditation.

I get anxiety when I don’t get stuff done which causes extreme overwhelming feelings of dread followed by a bout of depression at such time I lay in child’s pose, breathe it out, do some chanting and start to feel “attentive” to life again.

Magnesium has been a godsend. One that no medical doctors recommended to me over the course of a year and a half but my beautiful Naturopathic doctor was able to prescribe.

I have traded in my espressos for Dandelion Root, Medical Doctors for Naturopaths, Perfume for Essential Oils and wine nights for reading in bed.

I am educated yet lack retention. I am outgoing yet extremely introverted.

This new journey has been weirdly liberating. I have invested in a spiritual coach who has supported me into sharing my psychic abilities with the wild women that have been attracted to my offerings. I have detached from main stream medical care except for chiropractic care and regular therapy because… well who doesn’t need an amazing therapist when navigating our day to day 3-D life.

But hey this is where I am at. This is what ADHD looks like. Successful yet sporadic. Dedicated yet depressed. Easygoing yet overwhelmed. A warrior. A spirited high priestess navigating the world with a million different thoughts and spirits …souls and messages.

Dedicated. Motivated…and Grateful. 

 

I love you.

 

Silas Rises

Author Silas Rises

Aloha from Hawaii. Today I am in Hawaii, tomorrow I am in Canada. I would love to share my expansion from the 3D life I lived, dormant for decades to where I am today; always a student...always ascending. I lived a life as a teacher, social worker, law student to a lightwkrker, cosmic healer, intuitive energy worker and business owner. I have a tribe of star seeds and a life of magic to support their growth in the new world. Thank you for being here beauties, I look forward to this journey together. I love you.

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